so i just weighed myself for the first time in about a month, and suprisingly throughout all the drinking and eating like shit…i didnt gain weight.
125.6 was my number. great? yes.
i think all of this walking on campus is burning mega calories, soo i am assuming from now on if i finally start eating right, which i have been for the past few days, and exercising regularly i will definitely lose weight.
i think since i am not trying to make weight loss my life obsession, i am going to weigh in on the first of every month and hope for 1 - 2 pounds. slow and steady.
but i am currently in a nutrition class..and i swear to gosh its amazing. i am so good at it because it interests me so much. this is how i know that i am meant to be a dietician.
:)
another chance to redeem myself, and i did great! thank goodnesss. i feel like i am finally settled into school and crazy syllabus party week is over so i can get back into the swing of things. though it is going to be a hard semester i know i can do it. i am aiming for straight As. 4.0 even with chem…ughh i think if i stay on top of it and work harer than anyone ever thought i could, i will do great. DIETETICS here i comeeeee :)
anyways i am about to go to the gym and try a new interval training plan that the wonderful @milfitude put in my messages. so thankk you for that if you ever see this haha.
calorie-wise i am trying to do about 1500…it is SO hard to count with dorm food. i have really been trying to stay away from the pre prepared meals because i have no idea what is going into them and some of them have the calorie count.. but i am absolutely positive none of those are correct.. a buttered breadstick 21 calories? yeah. in an alternate universe.
but also the amount of walking i am doing is insane. legit. it feels good though :) ive gota keep walking everywhere even in the winter time.
i am also now addicted to iced coffee. it had been helping me get throuhg long study sessions and it isnt even high cal. woohooo! so it is my study treat from now on, plus, i think it is helping curb my sweet and snack tooth.
but now off to the gym!
does everyone think this is enough…or should i aim for more? i was previously doing 60 min mon weds friday, and 30 min t,th,sat. but being away at school is going to make it hard to force myself to go to the gym for an hour of cardio when i am so busy with other things as well.
so i think i might scale it down to be more reasonable:
M - 60 min
T - 30
W - 45
Th- 30
F - 45
S- 30
t,th,s - when i do strength training as well.
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i apologize for my very long absence but coming to a new school with so many things to figure out and so many classes it was hard to update. but i am for sure back now after last nights episode.
i hadnt really binge eaten at all while i was here, and i think it is because i have just been so happy. happier than ever before. but something about last night made me so mad and in my drunken state…a terrible terrible binge. more than an entire days worth of calories. and i have always thought that emotions really didnt trigger my binge eating. i wasnt sure what triggered it. but now i realize that the past few years have actually been really really hard on me and the second i got happy, the bingeing stopped. so it really is emotional. i am just so disgusted and guilty right now and i wish i could take it all back. so right now right here i am starting over (yes, again) but it will be different this time because i now realize it really is just emotional so i will have to think of a new way to control these emotions.
i know i can do this. i need to get back on my feet, and getting back into tumblr with this support group is the first step.
my goal really isnt solely to lose weight anymore..i don’t really need to, so i dont want it to overtake my life anymore. of course id love to lose 5 or ten pounds, but i think that normal eating habits and a good exercise routine will bring me to that place. 115 pounds will be my ideal weight i think, it still allows me to go out and have fun and also indulge when i want..still giving me some sexyy curves? haha.. anyways it is good to be back.
:)
ps…i will weigh myself on weds, sept 1st..im terrified. all the drinking and drunk munchies..i knowww it wont be good.
so i have been on a little bit of a tumblr break because of all the packing and things for school but im back ! im all moved in and last night was our first night here…which was a complete success. it feels so right here compared to iowa, i cant even explain it. though this upcoming week will not involve the healthiest choices considering the amount of alcohol that will be consumed because it is syllabus week, it will be well worth it. barely anyone was even here last night because today is the big move in day and it was still the funnest time ever.
anyways more health related..tomorrow i will get back to working out because i got dressed and ready and attempted to go to the gym in my dorm but it was locked… i think it opens monday or hopefully sooner, and if not i will just make the trek to the ARC fitness center. and as for eating yesterday was absolutely terrible (at least i didnt drunk eat) but i was definitely back on track today. ill probably start regularly posting again on monday when classes start :)
sorry i havent been updating…my eating hasnt been terrible but definitely not okay. the weekend was amazing, the last one before all of my friends and i head back to school. i leave tomorrow and havent really started packing so i will update when i get back to u of i !
everyone have a lovely lovely day!
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so i have been in love with the same boy for two and a half years. sad, yes. but he is one of my best friends and our relationship has gotten completely messed up so many times because of all types of different feelings. i try so hard to not like the kid anymore and sometimes i even somewhat convince myself, but then ill get a text from him and my entire stomach drops and my heart starts racing. who am i kidding. i just want it to stop because it hurts too much.
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